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Reacting to My Old (badly) Facetuned Instagram Photos - YouTube
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my name is Sarah Schulte and I used to
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facetune the crap out of all my photos
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yes it's true the rumors are true I was
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not always the body-positive
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loved yo'self person that I am now just
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a few years back I was not in a good
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place with my body and instead of
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putting in the work to make those
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changes a reality in the gym and with
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clean eating I would face toon my photos
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to give myself the body that I wanted in
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real life on social media and this is
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before I even started YouTube so I was
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so insecure about my body that I
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convinced myself that I could manipulate
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the way my body looked with editing apps
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so that when my friends and my family
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saw my pictures on social media they
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would think that was actually what I
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looked like and for some reason it never
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went through my head that people know me
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in person and there would be a
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difference between real life and
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Instagram but regardless my Instagram
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used to be filled with photoshopped bass
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tuned manipulated images that did not
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look at all like my actual body now I
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never do that now on my Instagram what
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you see is the real me I do not use
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editing apps to change my body I just
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show you guys how it is what my body
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actually looks like so I thought those
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photos were gone forever when I deleted
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them but they are still on Facebook in a
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private album so today I downloaded
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those pictures onto my phone and we are
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going to be reacting to my old very
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poorly facetune photos and I've already
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made a video where I talked about my
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opinions on Photoshop and face tuned so
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if you want to watch that I will link
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that in the description but without
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further ado let's take a look at these
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face two photos okay so the first photo
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is actually not that bad so I started
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off pretty good with the subtle face
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tuning and it gets worse as we go so
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this photo is me at the pumpkin patch
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with three of my sorority sisters in my
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first year of college I lost about 20
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pounds before I went to college and then
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I slowly gained it back during my
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freshman year so this was a point where
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I had gained maybe 10 pounds and I
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wanted to look the way I did before I
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left for college so it's pretty subtle
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honestly I did a really good job but not
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trying to brag about how I manipulated
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my body but you
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can't really tell unless you look
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closely the only thing I did is I you
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can see I pulled in my chin so it looks
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a lot narrower than it actually is NIC
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narrower and I don't know how to say
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that but if you look at my face in this
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picture versus my face and another photo
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at that time that isn't edited you can
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see yeah my face is thinner then that it
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is now but it's never been that angular
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I don't think anyone's face maybe some
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people but most people's faces aren't
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that angular and it makes my face look
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off because that's not what my face
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shape is supposed to look like so I just
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squeezed that in and then I took my
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waist you can see on the side where I'm
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sitting next to my friend in the red
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dress I squeezed that in to try to make
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my waist look narrower but this was you
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know not a bad Photoshop job I don't
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think the average person would know that
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that was manipulated and I think the
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thing is you'll see as we go through
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these I have about six or seven photos
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it gets so bad to the point where I look
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at this and like did I actually think
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this looks good did I actually think
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anyone would believe I looked like that
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alright next photo is significantly
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worse than the last one so this is me on
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the day I got my first apartment and I
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think Skylar actually took this picture
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but it's just me smiling holding up my
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keys I'm looking and you know pretty
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casual I've got a sweater on some
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leggings you know I've been moving all
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day make sense but what does it make
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sense is if you zoom way in there must
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be something wrong with my apartment you
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guys this this door is not sturdy it's
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all curved and crooked yeah needless to
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say this is not what the actual door to
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my apartment looks like it looks like a
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normal door but I used facetune to pull
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in my waist and my legs to look thinner
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and that distorted this image so that
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the door looks like it's in a funhouse
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mirror I also I can't believe my hair
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was ever that long oh my gosh it was so
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long right after this photo was taken
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maybe like a month later I cut like
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eight or nine inches off my hair and
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it's been pretty short ever since but
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anyways
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that's not what we're talking about okay
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so I definitely pulled my arm in you can
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that's why the door is all you know
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squiggly because I've always had like
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bigger arms and at this time I was like
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doing more like weightlifting and I
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wasn't losing weight but I was gaining
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muscle so my arms were pretty big so
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having my
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next to my side I was always really
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uncomfortable with that so you can see I
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pulled that in to try to make it look
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smaller and then I did the same thing
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with my legs and my waist I wanted it to
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look thin I think at this time I was
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probably about a size eight and now I'm
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like a size 12 and the way I edited
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myself I look like like a size two
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honestly which I've never been in my
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life I'm just really so so frickin glad
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I'm out of this mindset because man
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these photos are like they're they're
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fine and I look happy in them but just
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knowing my feeling after the photo was
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taken that I had to edit it is sad
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next photo this is Easter of that same
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year so that what Easter is in like
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April something like that the editing
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has probably Scott and worse you can
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tell but this photo was taken just in
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front of some flowers so that doesn't
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show the editing like the door did so
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this is Steven and I we had been dating
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for just over a year when this photo was
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taken and I it's already a flattering
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angle cuz it's like a up top you know
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it's like looking down on me so I'm sure
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I looked beautiful and fine in the
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normal picture but for whatever reason I
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pulled in my waist a ton and you can
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tell by the curve where it goes from my
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shoulders that are normal down to my
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waist where I pulled it in it just looks
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ridiculous
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and it makes my head look giant because
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I made my body so small oh my gosh I
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just remembered something about this
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picture if you have been on my channel
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for a long time I made a video in maybe
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like a year after I started my channel
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where I was crying because a female
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relative had showed me this specific
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photo and said hey you look great in
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this photo you should lose weight so you
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look like that again when you get
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married cuz I had just gotten engaged oh
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my gosh and I remember that's one of the
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reasons I was so upset because not only
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was I in a really bad place when this
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photo was taken I was like starving
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myself and going back and forth and back
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and forth with working out and then
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binging it was just a bad cycle and also
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this photo was heavily manipulated I
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never looked like this ever even when
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this photo was taken that's not what I
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looked like I I think that's one of the
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reasons I hit me so hard was because no
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matter how hard I work out I'm never
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gonna look like that and the way that
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that relative had said you know
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you would look so much better like this
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and no matter how hard I worked out even
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if I did get down to a lower weight I
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would never look like this photo because
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I never actually looked like that that's
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crazy
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okay next photo so this is Stephen and I
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in Mexico this was around the same time
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that last photo was taken and I was in a
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bathing suit so I was already way more
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insecure than the other photos which
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meant I edit it edited it about ten
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times smaller so I'm just gonna zoom in
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on to the middle picture because I feel
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like that's where the editing is most
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apparent since it's a series of photos I
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was probably a size 10 at this point so
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only slightly smaller than I am right
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now I was probably eight to ten pounds
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lighter than I am right now does this
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look like me does this look the way that
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I look now or even remotely close no it
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definitely does not because that's not
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the way I look so I clearly pulled in my
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waist on both sides I think that's the
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difference is I pulled in my waist on
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Stephen which sorry Stephen that made
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his stomach look bigger and you can see
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the manipulation around the buttons on
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his shirt and then I went on the other
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side too and I pulled that in and my
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thighs
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if you zoom way in I only pulled those
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in from the back so there's like a weird
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curve cuz they're so like plumper on the
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front but I made the back look small so
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it just looks like it it looks like I
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must be like standing on my toes leaning
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forward like Michael Jackson style
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because only the front of my thighs are
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like bigger this is so bad oh man if I
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ever actually did look like this
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that would be like dangerous that would
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be way too small for me
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last photo again one that I'm really sad
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I don't have the actual photo of this is
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when I saw the Deaf West production of
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Spring Awakening in LA and I have a
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photo with krysta Rodriguez and a photo
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with Andy Mientus my antis my ATIS I'm
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sorry fellow theater kids let me know in
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the comments how to say his last name
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but I had so much fun this day and I had
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a great time I went up with some of my
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theater friends and my clearly clearly
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this is the worst I think my editing and
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my manipulating gets and right around
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this time is when I stopped editing my
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photos this is probably one of the last
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ones I ever edited and I look at it and
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it's just so terrible so my head looks
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like a bobble head because I mean
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my body's so small and what's
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interesting about this one is in the
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other photos I never edited my chest
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because I was always fine with having a
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bigger chest I would just try to make my
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waist look smaller but in these I was so
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insecure about having a bigger chest
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because I thought that made me look
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bigger but I edited that to be flatter
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to so I'm not even just trying to make
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myself look like I lost weight in these
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photos I'm trying to make myself look
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like I have a completely different body
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frame in a completely different shape
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because I've never been that like more
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boxy athletic shape that I'm trying to
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get here I've always had bigger hips
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bigger chest and smaller waist no matter
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how much weight I gain or lose I always
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have that saying like fat distributions
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and here I'm just completely changing my
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shape so I pulled in my arms clearly in
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the other photo I just cut my arm off
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because I did not want anyone to see my
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chubby arms hold in my waist
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ridiculously I did the same thing with
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my face that I did in the first photo
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where I tried to make my face look
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thinner and actually just opening up a
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little bit more the friend that I went
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up to see the show with passed away
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recently and I was going through my
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facebook to try to find photos of us and
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the only photos I could find from this
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day were ones where I had edited my body
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and it's really sad to me that like one
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of the memories I had preserved through
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photos with that friend are all
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manipulated and I don't really know what
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I looked like and also it's just really
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sad to think about the mindset that I
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had to beat in to manipulate my body to
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that extreme and that I was so unhappy
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with the way that I looked that I
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couldn't possibly share that with the
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world but I had to share something so I
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changed my body and that these
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ridiculous body image standards that I'm
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so against now and that I really tried
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to combat in the other direction I was
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at one time contributing to because I'm
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sure lots of my friends who followed me
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on Instagram back then saw those photos
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and thought oh my gosh Ciara looks so
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thin I wish I could look like that and
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just what I wanted to look like that to
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you because that's not what I actually
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looked like being in a mindset where I
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at least understand that this is how I
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look like and that if I want to change
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it I have to put in the work at the gym
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and I have to like eat clean and have a
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healthy mindset it just makes me so much
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happier and I'm so freakin glad that all
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the photos I take now are actually the
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way I look and when I look back on them
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ten years from now I won't wonder if it
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was edited
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cuz I'm happy with the way that I look
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thank you for being part of this
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body-positive journey with me and I will
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be back on Friday with the third episode
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of Sarah Schultz ease confidence
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makeover it's one that's all about
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weight loss and self-acceptance so I
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really hope that you liked it I hope you
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liked this video and I hope my hair
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didn't annoy you guys cuz sometimes I
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see in the comments that you guys hate
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when my hair gets into one big curl and
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girl
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I hate it too did you see how many times
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I was putting my fingers in my hair I
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can't I can't stand it but that's just
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what my hair does anyways thanks for
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watching and I will see you guys on
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Friday with another new video bye
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