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I Can't Stop Pulling My Hair Out - YouTube
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pull my hair out every single day I
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would say if I'm not attacking an
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eyelash I've been talking my actual hair
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on my head
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trichotillomania broken down through
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greek it trick is hair tillow is to pull
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at mania as a manic or frenzy so
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basically it's a manic frenzy of pulling
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out your own hair
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I can't exactly say why I pull my hair
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out because it's very neurological I
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just get sudden urges I can control my
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hair pulling
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to a certain extent but there are times
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where I don't even know that I'm aware
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of doing it until my hand goes numb or
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my arm starts to hurts and then I kind
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of just snap back into it and then
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realize what I was doing that year old
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Kelsey lives everyday with an urge to
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pull out her own hair I will start
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feeling like there's like ants and like
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needles like poking my head and it just
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it won't stop and then I kind of have
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this yeah uncontrollable urge to
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actually start digging around and trying
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to find what hair is actually bothering
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me and I can't stop until that hair is
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removed which means that there's
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probably 10 or 20 others that are going
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down with it the perfect strand for me
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though is something that's coarse and
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wiry has an extremely completely
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different texture than on the other hair
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sometimes it feels really good to pull
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my hair out because I am getting rid of
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that sensation so I guess it can kind of
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relax you in a sense other times it does
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hurts and most of the time I don't
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really know that I'm doing it
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Kelsey first admitted she was pulling
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her hair out to her parents when she was
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just five years old I remember her
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coming down the stairs and she had some
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blank spots on the top of her head over
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forehead and she finally admitted in
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tears that she was pulling her hair out
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and it's true and going into her bedroom
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to find out what's going on like where
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all this hair is we opened in a closet
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door and there was a garbage can inside
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her closet and it is full of hair going
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up with my sister having
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trichotillomania
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I knew if she was stressed out because
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there was patches of hair on the floors
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I know how much I loved my hair and it's
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like a security blanket for me so to not
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have control over something like that it
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wouldn't be easy when finally you get to
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a point where
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you can either cry about this disorder
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or you can accept it we got to the
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acceptance and we got there very very
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fast
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Kelsey has tried a number of different
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therapies and medicines for her
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condition but she now manages it herself
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every part of my body is completely
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shaved so I don't have urges to go
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anywhere else
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ways that I deal with it to cover up the
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ball patches as I wear a headband
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usually throughout the day and if I'm
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going anywhere I usually wear a wig okay
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I told my fianc茅 about my condition
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pretty much the first day that we met
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bothered me a little bit at the
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beginning but then I realized that it's
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nothing she can do you know it's all
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mental you know it's it's a disease
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right and people don't understand that
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when I see you're pulling her hair out
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like I'll just joke jokingly and I'll
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give her a little nudge or you know what
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do you doing babe you know and then
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she'll stop right away because then I
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make her aware of it right
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having grown up struggling with her own
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hair Kelsey now works as a hairdresser
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with a focus on helping others with hair
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loss she also speaks publicly about her
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experiences to help raise awareness
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about her condition
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trichotillomania definitely inspired me
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to get into hair dressing I needed to
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find a way to cover my bald spots people
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with skin conditions and sensitive
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topics when it came to their hair the
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reason why they came to me was because I
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wouldn't judge them how can I judge
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somebody when I have issues myself I
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think people are ashamed to talk about
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the condition because who wants to admit
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that they pull their own hair out I have
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tried it all I've put gloves on my hand
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with duct tape wrapped around it this
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disorder is very relentless and it likes
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to just take control so you have to
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constantly find crafty ways to to stop
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yourself from doing it I know that my
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only purpose to be here can't just be to
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live it's to work with what everyone
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might see is a weakness and turn into a
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strength so my confidence kind of came
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from
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not letting my disorder rule my life the
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courage that she show was the strength
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that she shows is absolutely amazing she
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has not only come into herself she's
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also helped countless people to come
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into their own as well I don't let your
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concealer mania control my life because
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it's what I have not who I am
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